Stienernema is a member of the Steinernematidae. It is parasitic on a wide variety
of insects making them ideal for biological pest control. This remedy was ordered from a commercial company specializing in biological pest control, and was triturated by myself. The following is an extract from my book, The Table of Animals: The Ecdysozoa: Nematodes and Early Arthropods.
C1-3
The main issue in this remedy is strategic thinking and trickiness. The being feels itself to be on a different wavelength than the rest of the world, ignored, silent, faint and invisible. The being feels that it must be noticed by the world, taken seriously and listened to. It must impress itself upon the world in order to be truly secure and valid in its identity. Being on a different wavelength and generally ignored by the world however makes this very difficult. The being feels like it needs to be clever, to plays its cards right and use strategy to accomplish its goal, allowing it to maximize whetever impact it does have in order to be noticed and affect the world.
C1:
Preformed November 24th 2015:
- I feel a hesitancy, a hesitation about something
- I feel a fear of something
- I feel a flushing of my face and a feeling of faintness. I am nearly about to loose consciousness
- I feel very faint and afraid. I’m almost non-existent. I have a feeling of transparency
- I’m afraid, but I am avoiding something by becoming invisible
- There is almost a burning feeling slithering in my chest. It is as if I have a worm inside of me which burns going down through my trachea and into my abdomen
- I’m very light headed and faint
- There is a burning in my feeling in my solar plexus
- And some burning feeling in the throat
- I feel an emotionless
- I feel an odd energy, like a quivering
- I feel nausea with faintness, > nodding my head
- A flush of heat with faintness
C2:
Preformed November 26th 2015:
- Again I feel very faint. I am almost invisible, as if I am minimized in some way
- Yes, faint, that is the key word
- I feel very silent and quiet. I am observing but I do not feel like I am noticed much. I feel like a gas or puff of smoke. I am so insubstantial that I have no weight
- I want to speak, but I cannot. No one can hear me
- I have a voice, but it is very quiet. I can’t manage to get others to pay attention to me
- I feel insubstantial. I exist, but what and who I am is so faint as to be almost invisible from the outside
- I feel a pull to express myself, but I cannot seem to succeed at it. I am too weak, too faint. I don’t have the strength
- I need volume. I need power to express myself. And the outside world feels weird in some way
C3
Preformed November 27th 2015:
- Again the feeling of faintness and invisibility
- I feel like I am keeping to myself because no one will listen to me. There is a calculated notion to this. I am trying to be strategic and maximize my voice
- I feel very tricky and calculating about this
- I’m calm and calculated. If I can play my cards right I can make sure I am heard
- I feel a kind of tension within myself. I long to express myself and be who I am. But it is like I am on a different wavelength than the rest of the world and no one can hear me
- I sense the rest of the world as a washed out grey color. My own personality can interact with it, but only very weakly. I’m not invisible, but I’m on another wavelength
- I need to be tricky to overcome this issue. If I am clear I can make the grey world around me listen, but I will need to be smart about it
- But what if I’m not smart? Will I just fail and be forgotten?
- There is a potential to just be forgotten. To be invalidated and forgotten and just collapse into a pile of helplessness and sadness
C4
The being now feels valid in its own identity, regardless of its impact or of its being noticed by the rest of the world. It is secure in its identity regardless of any reaction outside of itself.
Preformed November 28th 2016:
- I feel very good and relaxed.
- I feel calm, less exertive. I no longer feel the need to exert effort in order to be noticed
- I feel confident in myself, self assured. I no longer feel the need to make the outside world notice me in order to feel valid
- I feel as if I needed to impress myself and my characteristics on the outer world in order to do something previously. No I am content.
- I feel at peace. Even if the world doesn’t listen, I am me.
- It truly doesn’t matter
- I felt as if the world had to hear me out and react to me to be truly myself. I needed to express it and make others react!
- But the outside world doesn’t matter. What matters is my own self which is valid no matter how the outside world reacts to me
- I do not need its validation to be me. All I need is my own self, expressing perfectly as me. Nothing else is needed
- I felt like I was seeking validation from the outside world. As if I could not really believe I was me without its approval. As if I was lesser, unregarded, almost irrelevant without it
C5
This level of trituration shows more detailed information about the beings relationship to the world. The being perceives a flavor, an essence to itself that it perceives as superior to that of the outside world. It feels it must use coercion in order to make the outside world notice it and eventually adopt its own flavor.
Preformed November 29th 2015:
- I feel distance, disdain and irritation
- I feel better than what is around me. I feel distinct and superior
- There definitely is a bit of a superiority complex here
- I feel distinctly arrogant towards what is around me. I feel better than it
- I feel as if I have my own identity, and it is better
- The rest of the world. Should listen to me! But it continues on not regarding me. It is maddening!
- I feel ignored and I do not want to be! I am unique and distinct and different than everything else
- I should be listened to, even my ways adopted
- I feel generally better and smarter than others. I do feel like I will try to use this intelligence to try to coerce them into accepting my characteristics
- But alas. I feel like I can’t. I’m not clear enough to make that happen
- I literally feel an energy or flavor that is me. And the rest of the world should see it too! But it cannot or will not. The rest of the world doesn’t care. It is indifferent
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