Known as the warty Comb Jelly or the Sea Walnut, Mnemopsis is a member of the 
Lobata order of the Tentaculata. It has 4 rows of Cilia combs. It feeds upon on small zooplankton. This specimen was obtained from a marine specimen laboratory and was triturated by myself. I drowned the specimen in vodka, then triturated a small portion including cilia and mesoglia. This is an extract from my book The Table of Animals: The Porifera, Ctenophora and Cnidaria.
C1-3
The initial levels of the trituration present the picture of a being immersed in sensation and perception. The being drifts through life, experiencing things on a purely sensory level, not thinking about its experiences or reflecting on them. It lives a simple life, going where the currents of life draw it. However the being experiences much in life that is unpleasant, and specifically very frightening. It feels great danger in the world and a profound lack of safety but in order to avoid it, the being must actively direct its course throughout life. This feels like a huge amount of effort to the being, exhausting it. The being is caught between frightening experiences of perception and a state of exhaustion from trying to direct its course away from those frightening things.
C1:
Preformed October 8th 2015:
- I feel dreamy, spacy and almost a bit unreal
- But my experiences are also very vivid!
- There is a feeling of cool water rushing down my shoulders
- The sensation in that area seems a great deal more vivid to me
- I feel very dreamy, it is hard to think clearly
- Everything is very immediate, very vivid. It is as if there is nothing in my perception but my immediate sensation
- I feel very afraid right now
- I am more removed and dreamy…. I’m getting words mixed up
- I feel very sleepy
- I only perceive. There is not a lot of reaction to my perception
- I feel very fluid and formless, just impressions and perceptions
- I literally feel a freeze in my brain. I cannot think or process!
C2:
Preformed October 12th 2015:
- Again I feel the lack of thought and processing, as well as the vivid sensation
- There is not much thinking, just perceptions
- There is a certain joy in living this way. It feels wholesome, organic, simple. I get a real sense of simplicity. An idea occurs to me “ why would I want to make things complicated?”
- It feels almost as if I am high. Perception is very captivating
- I’m forgetting to do things, daydreaming, getting lost easily
- There is a deep calmness to this remedy. Everything is very simple when you let it be so. Just observe it, don’t think much about it!
- I have a sense of moving through flowing water. I’m drifting, going wherever the water takes me
- I have no active direction, there is no struggle to get anywhere
- Complete surrender, as the mystics say. There is no sense of identity to direct my course. I merely drift and experience.
- I’m so at peace. I have no problems
- I am now somehow uncomfortable. There is a feeling of being helpless and just suffering. I have no capacity to react.
- What I am perceiving disturbs me. Where I am going is uncomfortable
- I suffer!!!
C3:
Preformed October 14th 2015.
- I am troubled. I’m bothered by something but cannot quite put my finger on it
- I just cant quite conceptualize it
- I am disturbed. I feel a vague sense of unease
- I’m scared, distressed and helpless. I can’t do anything about it
- I feel like I am so passive. I can only just react to things I perceive. But I have no control
- In order to change things I have to do more than just drift
- I need to do more than just drift and react and perceive. I need to somehow actively engage, to actively do things. I would need to take control of my experience
- But I am afraid to do so!
- It is so much effort. Such energy is needed to actively direct oneself, to engage with the world! Its so much easier to drift and experience
- I’m stuck between the possibility of this unpleasant experience and between the work it would take to direct my experience actively
- I cant possibly sustain that level of energy
- I’m troubled by both options I have
- To be or not to be active in my choices
C4
In this level of the trituration the being feels a sense of safety. It now feels safe, and unfrightened by its experiences. With this new feeling of safety, the being begins to experience a sense of curiosity or a desire for experiences. For the first time there are things which the being actively desires to experience, and this desire gives the being a burst of energy which alleviates the sense of exhaustion felt in C1-3 when the being contemplates actively intervening in its path in life. This energy gives the being the stamina to actively direct its life. A sensation of shivering was associated with this active posture.
- I feel good. I am very happy peaceful and joyous!
- I feel safe. Safe enough to move around on my own now. Somehow what I am experiencing is less frightening now
- I feel curiosity now. I think I will be actively seeking perceptions now, but not out of fear of some perceptions, but out of a desire to experience certain things
- I want certain experiences. I will seek them out!
- I feel a sense of excitement about all of the things I am going to experience now. If they don’t appear to me I will and seek them out!
- This excitement, this zest for life seems to give me some sort of energy to actively seek out things. I am no longer fatigued!
- I pleasantly await the experiences I will have!
- I feel like I am floating and enjoying my self. I can now shiver and direct myself where I want to go. I can direct my own experience.
- I feel excited!
- I feel a jittery jelly squishy feeling throughout my body
- But this feeling is not in my heart. That feels solid for some reason
- I feel like a plastic bag full of water, or a very loose water balloon
- Again a feeling of shivering and propelling oneself
C5
In this level of trituration we return to the fears of the nature of ones experience found in C1-3. The being feels as if it is embarking on a great journey, but does not know what it will experience. Its natural inclination is to drift through life without active engagement with what it will experience, but this provokes great anxiety about this lacking any control over the content of those resulting experiences. Active engagement with life and selection of experiences would solve this problem, but is very exhausting to the being.
Preformed October 15th 2015:
- I feel nervous again and troubled
- I am worried about something
- What will my experience hold?
- I feel like I am starting on a long journey but that I do not know what it will entail
- What will I experience? What will I do? How will my life turn out?
- And what if my path turns out badly?
- I am afraid of the potential unpleasantness I might face
- I might not want to do this. I might just want to avoid the whole enterprise
- The issue is the type of experience I will have. Will this experience be what I am looking for, or what I need?
- If I continue passively drifting, I don’t think it will
- In order to have the type of experience I need I am going to have to move out of passive reception and actually take control of life
- I’ll need to actively do things for myself rather than just drift and perceive without taking an active role
- But it just seems so exhausting!
- I would just rather passively experience than actively direct my course of life. Its all about passivity
- It is a decision to take up with life or to let life happen to me and take no action on anything
- I feel a great fear and uncertainty
- I need to move actively but it is so difficult and frightening to do so!
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